Giving up

Giving up is so easy. Some days it seems like the only thing to do. But it's not in my nature to give up. this morning i was all set to prove my wife right, I was going to prove that she's right and act like a child, and do nothing for her. I planned to sit around make a mess and play video games. But it's only 9:15 and I have already started laundry, started dusting, and washed dishes and put them away. Why am I such a pansy? I never stick to my guns.

Do you know why? The only thing I can ever come up with is that I love her so much. I want her to come home to a clean house. I want her to come home to dinner on the table . I want to make a good life for her.

But when she tells me that I am a child and I don't do anything for her it makes me feel like I am worthless. I don't know what to do anymore.