My wife wants to know what is wrong...

how do I tell her that I am tired of being the bad guy. How do I tell her that I feel her when she pulls away at night, how do I tell her how much I miss you it used to be. How do I tell her that I just want her to love me. How do I tell her that I am sorry, how do i tell her that I wish she would forgive me for what I did to hurt her. How do I tell her that I am sad because I think I have ruined the one thing I care about in this world. How do I tell her that I am looking at our wedding pictures and remembering the happiest day, the happiest moment of my life and now I have ruined it. How do I tell her that I am lost and I don't what to do to make it better. How do I tell her how much I love her, that I would do anything to make her happy again. how do I tell her all I want is her love again. How do I turn back time and take one bad weekend away. How do I tell her that person, that weekend wasn't me. She told me the other day that since that weekend things have changed. I want things to go back. I screwed up, I know that, I know it, I want to make amends, but I don't know what to do. Please Lord, please help me. Please send her your forgiveness, and please send me your strength. All I want is for us to be happy. All I want is to make her happy, all I want is for her to love me again. How do I tell her that my heart is breaking because I broke our relationship and I know it's all my fault. I broke the only thing that matters to me.

Living Situation

It is so hard to keep my faith in the Lord. I am trying and it is hard. I have prayed to the Lord and asked that if living here is not the right answer that he would send a buyer for this house. I have kept faith, but I have my doubts. My wife hates our living situation and rather that have faith that the Lord has a plan she fights with me and blames me and makes me feel like shit about this situation. Everytime we have an argument I find it harder and harder to keep my faith. I love my wife dearly, I want to do everything I can to make her happy, but it is so hard. I am usually a very optimistic and happy person, but she has worn me down, and now I am feeling dejected, worthless and sad.

Lord, please send me a sign, please help me.