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It's been a long time between posts. Sorry about that (as if anyone reads my blog, but things have been hectic. Getting ready for the wedding, getting married, going on the honeymoon, getting home, and on top of that finding a new job. I am now married, soon to be unemployed, and things are not going as I dreamed. My wife and I have been arguing about our apartment, which we share with a roommate and 3 dogs. She wants to move, as in move yesterday. She thinks I do not understand her frustration with our living situation. She thinks I don't understand how much of a joykill it is having a roommate and not having privacy. She thinks I enjoy living here.

I don't. I hate it, I hate living with a roommate, I hate not being alone with the woman I love more than life itself, I hate dreading her coming home and him, or my downstairs relatives doing something to upset her. This is not how I pictured my life.

My only consolation is that I put my faith in God and I know he has a plan for us. I pray for answers and I try to put faith in those prayers. I prayed that God would tell me where to live, do I move now, or wait to see if we can move into the downstairs apartment. I think he will give me an answer, if someone buys the house, we move, if not, we go downstairs. That is the answer that God sent me, and I am trying to obey him and wait and see. I wonder if God knows what it is to live with an impatient woman, I suppose he must know it, but has he experienced it. I guess he is experiencing it through me, and I hope that he grants me some measure of peace and patience and pity.